Tuesday 24 May 2022
Sex and sexuality
I've spent a lot of time writing and thinking about gender swaps. I don't think I'm transgender, but it's a subject that I've always been curious about.
I remember the first time I thought about such a thing: watching Predator 2, wherein there is a scene of a woman riding a man with some enthusiasm. I remember sitting there watching this and wondering, suddenly, what it might be like to be a woman, to feel those breasts bouncing on my chest. I am unashamedly a breast guy, always have been.
I've written stories about switching genders, and as I got older they became more elaborate. I even posted some on a website or two before I figured out how to turn them into published stories on a website named after a river.
I haven't really thought about combining that fantasy with my magic before. I don't think I'm trans, as I mentioned, and I'm a little worried that such a combination might wind up changing me in ways I'd rather not. What am I worried about? Well, basically turning into a woman in every way but physically. I'm not sure that matters as much as it might have before, but it's not territory I'm eager to jump into.
The ideal is to simply be able to change back and forth from male to female at will. I've started looking into lucid dreaming and dream magic, because I think that realm is where I might have the most luck.
Philotes
What is this
Good question.
Long-form spell. Trying to clear my head. Attempting to accept who I am. Attempting to reach out to the divine. It's a lot of things. Mostly what it is, is for me. If you stumbled across this, hi, welcome, you're not likely to find much here that's useful for you.
Maybe some of my thoughts about magic or Philotes.